Sunday, December 30, 2012 / 9:28 PM
Goodbye 2012.Hello 2013!
31/12/12
Hi,
Today is the last day of 2012! Trying to spend some time reflecting on what I have achieved for the past one year, and what I have not (hoping that I can learn from this).
So for the past one year, I have overcome a lot (personally I do feel this)-
grew from plainly working to maintaining a close relationship with my colleagues, went from close friend to a stranger for a certain friend, studied part time instead of full time, and obviously grew from 21 to 22!
And so I have worked for close to 1 and a half years, and I am glad that I grew closer with my colleagues! Although my age and their age varies a lot, but they are still a fun bunch to work with. Whenever I have problems (irregardless of BGR, studies), I will turn to them and they will give me their honest opinions. Its really kind of hard to actually not laugh or even be not positive infront of them! I am glad we grew this close after 1 year plus, and I really hope we can have more outings to eating places like more mookata pls!
Occasionally I find myself not being myself( hard to understand I know), just because I quarrelled with this "friend". And now, I feel that I am unable to actually like talk to her as per normal times cause I am afraid. Afraid that she might say that I am trying to get close with her again as how I did tried the previous time. But now, I did tried, and I have realised, that I actually seriously do not need her in my life now. Cause I do know that despite the few friends that I have, I do have true friends.though some of the friends are actually friends of weichiang's, but at least I do know they are true. Not saying that you are not true, but things have reached the stage where I do not need you in my life, and vice versa. So I have decided to really forego this friendship of ours.
Studies is still ok, but occasionally I will be damn scared that I am unable to memorise all the information! I do hope everything will be ok and I will manage to pass all! Please let me pass all!!!Part time studies is really not easy, and many people feel that it's really easy cause just study for 3 hours and get home? But it's really not as simple, cause it involves a lot of sacrifices and patience. I know I do flare up occasionally, but it's due to people being unable to understand how hard it can get. Only those who take part time will fully understand how it really is.
And I grew from 21 to 22. More responsibilities, more maturity to be held for my decisions. And while reaching this age, I realised and discovered so many things. How people are willing to sacrifice for you( weichiang), and for those people who don't even bother( ahem ahem), and how true friends are.
Thanks if you really have touched me in this age cause I really do appreciate you. And to those who don't bother, or are MIA-ing in my dictionary, just f off out of my life, cause I can jolly well survive without you.
And so...it's yet another year. I won't write down resolutions for 2013, cause I do know that if I domt achieve them, I will be so guilty. But I do hope that in 2013, I will live more, laugh more and love more.
Cheers to 2013 and happy new year to ALL!!!!